Ecstasy..

When you knew,
You were taken for a ride all through..
You were dreaming,
Going for a ride with, all around..
Chirping with lovely birds..
Swirling with  autumn leaves..
Murmuring sweet nil's into the chilly breeze..

When you were dreaming,
Hands were held, hearts were tied..
A smile sprouted..
Love blossomed to..
Seeds of passion, drowning in
Molten cream of melted hearts..

But
When you know,
You are taken for a ride all through..
It hits..
The orgasm of heart..
And..
It's the ecstasy of pain, forever..!

Josh...

About a Proud Idiot...

Am proud of what am...

It's meaningless to live on others perceptions...
So, let me be arrogant, proud and selfish..
As my words and deeds answer my consciousness, not yours..

My love is of giving...
Not that of gaining..not that of forcing.
Without judging,
I give you the freedom to be who you are..
The pain I may get back, and I do breakdown..
Your slap I may get, back stab,
or, a puppet I may be used as....
But,
Don't ever think that am fooled...
I let you do that knowingly, though act otherwise.
That's to enjoy your happiness,
Admiring you exercising your freedom..

Let me say again, my love is of giving..
Whatever I get back, are my treasures,
To nourish and grow the love I have,
To give you more..

Let the gauge of our relationship be your perceptive..
But don't ever judge my feelings..
As you won't be able to fathom it..

Am a being..
Loves to walk on edges..
To howl like wolves..
To cry like babies..
To love like god..
And to hate like I do...
For me, extremes are not yet defined...

But nonetheless,
Am proud of what am...!

S.J
Debitum Naturae..

...ഇതളുകൾ...

ആർദ്ര,മൊഴുകുന്നുവോ,
സഖീ നിൻ പ്രണയം?,നീർ
മിഴികൾ സജലം, നിൻ
ചിരികൾ കൊഴിഞ്ഞുവോ...?

നിൻ ചിരിയിതളുകൾ
മമതേൻ മലരുകൾ,
പുഞ്ചിരി, മുകിലുകൾ
തൂവും മയിൽപ്പീലികൾ..

നിൻ മിഴിയനന്തമാം
നൽ സ്വപ്നകവാടങ്ങൾ..
നിൻ മൊഴി,യെന്നാത്മാവിൻ
നഷ്ടമാം സങ്കീർത്തികൾ..

തേടി ഞാൻ ജന്മങ്ങളിൽ,
നീളെ യുഗസന്ധ്യയിൽ..
തീവ്രാനുരാഗ,മിനി,
ലയം നിൻ ഗന്ധങ്ങളിൽ.... !

Josh..

...ഇതളുകൾ...

നില,യൊളിച്ചു പോയെൻ
നിനവിൽ; നിരാശയും;
നിഴലും നിറക്കൂട്ടും,
ആർദ്ദ്രമിനി, രാവുകൾ...

മിഴിനീരുതിരു,മത്‌
നെയ്ത്തിരിയായുരുകും..,
മനഃ,ചെരാതിൽ സഖീ,
നിന്നോർമ്മകൾ ജ്വലിക്കും...

തപചിത്തമെൻ ചിത..;
പോകയെൻ പ്രിയസഖീ..
നിൻ കൂടൊരുക്കി ദൂരെ
ഹരിതാഭ സന്ധ്യകൾ.....!

Josh..

Dreamzzz..

My dreams,
Flutters of lightning bees,
Swarming through
A foggy night drizzle...

It's fairy shades,
And streaks of golden rays,
Flaring down,
Through the threads of rain...

These leaves of rain,
Waves of my love and lust;
Beads of sober moans,
Trickling down the sweaty cheeks,
To smother these waves, ever thriving...!


S.J
Debitum Naturae..

Rain..,Pain.., Come Again..!

It rains...,
Pouring down the pains...
A breathe,
Strangled in my thoughts,
Envies a muffled scream....!

Your heart beats....,
Murmurs of a sober rhyme.
Mourns, a feeble smile,
My heart slumber in time...

It rains upon the barren seeds,
The love,
You reaped out of my heart.
Broken not, for the birds they may,
Weep thou not, for the birds shalt sing..!


S.J
Debitum Naturae.

Journey Of My Soul..

Am,
As mystified as ever....
wandering through the graves..
singing
the rhymes that my heart beats;
laughing
together with my souls around;
I sang them my dreams and sorrows...
And I heard them laugh aloud...

A whisper...!
To warn me of a flame,
The flame of passion and love...

Thee..
be above the flame,
spare me the blame,
and give me the time,
to know thy name....


S.J
Debitum Naturae.